The valley has been dry, long and desperately silent. Going back and back and back eventually might sum up into what comes next. The pending state of being in a (US) state really has a huge impact on perceiving the steps between the one back and the other as a torture. No, I have not wasted my time but I am tired of sorting things out, hesitating, thinking. I know, I have always been and then I found something to step on, to start with, to step forward until the thoughts came back. I revised this pattern and instead of starting something new again, I decided this time to take up the old aims, ideas and projects and go a little further. Like when you almost ran a half marathon and stopped just before you were able to. Now you have to start pretty much from the beginning but the learning curve will be a lot denser and eventually lead to a level that can be tagged as intermediate. No absolute beginner, nevermore!